Month of Drama

My goodness, it's been a while since I updated here. December seems to have passed in an exhausting flurry. To fill you in on what's happened since I last blogged: after a lot of rehearsals we finally put on our panto. It was a long run (for me) of 13 shows but I got through it all, I was able to sing my solo parts well and for that I feel quite proud of myself and hope to build on that and finally kick my stagefright.

Right in the middle of the run I got offered and started a job which was busy, hetic but well-pid so I got stuck in despite being exhausted from working all day and performing all night. However, it was not meant to be it seems. After 6 days of being there some senior managers decided to cancel my contract without having any understanding of what the job involves and how under-staffed and busy the team I worked for was/is. I'm still quite annoyed as I saw this as my chance to work steady somewhere and knuckle down, word hard, make a lot of money and sort myself out. But some people had other plans.

So I'm back at square one. No job, little money, and not much I can do to help the jobhunt t the minute as with being Christmas, it's all gone quiet. So I'm back home with the family (another drama, couldn't get home and ended up staying in London on Xmas Day and flying home on Boxing Day), I'm feeling so so so sooooo bored and could really do with a computer that can play sound and music. I really need to get my You Tube on and the laptop that has always been my lifeline when I visit home is awaiting repairs. Gahhhh!!!

And I'm not feeling well.

I'm so tragic!

Make It End!!!

In such a weird mood at the moment. Tired, groggy, annoyed, frustrated, upset etc. etc. I want to start working (even though the job doesn't thrill me) so I can begin to make money again and relax and begin to sort out my finances. I didn't hear back about the audition I had on Thursday so that wasn't sucessful. Need to start working out again because I've gained some weight and don't feel good about it. I know it'll all pass in time but that doesn't help me right now.

It hasn't been an entirely crap weekend. I went to see a really good stand-up comedian on Friday night, met Idina Menzel yesterday at a CD singing (but my camera ran out of battery power so I couldn't get pics) and saw a fun burlesque show last night. I'm going home soo to watch TV and stuff myself with curry and other fun foods. Monday is the start of a new week and I guess anything can happen.

I'm In An Internet Cafe

My computer died on Thursday so now I have to use an internet cafe until:
a) I fix the computer (somehow)
or
b) Buy a new one (even though I have no job = no money)

Not much else has changed. Trying to stay positive and this cute little cafe is helping slightly. It's in a subway connect to a tubestation so I've have underground. It's also not a smally or dirty s the big random internet cafe on Charing Cross Road.

Right, the're closing soon so I need to print out some job stuff (interview tomoz) and log off.
Laterz.

Back To Life

I haven't died. I'm still here. The day after doing the marathon I was told that my job contract was ending. My last day was Monday 21st and I'm concerned/stressed/preoccupied with finding a job. I did think about updating the blog a lot earlier but couldn't bring myself to it. I just didn't have the energy to write about how things have changed. I still don't want to write too much write now but I realised that today is the last day of April so I thought I'd bring everyone up to speed.

Once I find some employment I will free up some space in my mind to write about recent events, especially completing the marathon.

So Crap I Actually Forgot To Put A Title

To be honest, I'm only updating now because I don't want to leave such long gaps in between each blog. I have nothing interesting to say. Nothing eventful's happened unfortunately nor am I depressed enough to write a "I HATE THE WORLD, YOU SUCK!" blog. My life at the moment is a constant stream of meh-ness.

We're still ploughing on with rehearsals for the comedy play which we will put on in under two weeks. I can't wait for this, I loved the performances but hate rehearsing. Especially when it's dragged on for so long like this one. Never again. Monday's rehearsal dragged on until 11pm meaning I didn't get home until after 12am and this did not please me at all. I skipped the next days rehearsal because I was knackered from getting to bed late and felt all the better for it. Sitting around for 4 hours watching everyone else while I wait to say my 5 or 6 lines is not fun and it really frustrates me as there's plenty of other things I could be doing with my time. I'll enjoy performing the actual play but I can't wait until I have more free evenings and can do stuff again.

One of the first things that needs doing is decorating the flat. I've put it off because apart from last weekend, I've not had a free Saturday for ages and if I'm to make any decorating impact on the flat then I'm going to need at least a full weekend for starters. I'm dreading the actual work itself, laying floorboards, stripping walls, painting etc. but I can't wait to have it finished and then I can go shopping for frilly girlie things. Cushions and candles and stuff. I'm looking forward to spending Winter/Christmas in my new, pretty, smelly (good smells) flat.

This has been a Crap Blog from Mel.