My goodness, it's been a while since I updated here. December seems to have passed in an exhausting flurry. To fill you in on what's happened since I last blogged: after a lot of rehearsals we finally put on our panto. It was a long run (for me) of 13 shows but I got through it all, I was able to sing my solo parts well and for that I feel quite proud of myself and hope to build on that and finally kick my stagefright.
Right in the middle of the run I got offered and started a job which was busy, hetic but well-pid so I got stuck in despite being exhausted from working all day and performing all night. However, it was not meant to be it seems. After 6 days of being there some senior managers decided to cancel my contract without having any understanding of what the job involves and how under-staffed and busy the team I worked for was/is. I'm still quite annoyed as I saw this as my chance to work steady somewhere and knuckle down, word hard, make a lot of money and sort myself out. But some people had other plans.
So I'm back at square one. No job, little money, and not much I can do to help the jobhunt t the minute as with being Christmas, it's all gone quiet. So I'm back home with the family (another drama, couldn't get home and ended up staying in London on Xmas Day and flying home on Boxing Day), I'm feeling so so so sooooo bored and could really do with a computer that can play sound and music. I really need to get my You Tube on and the laptop that has always been my lifeline when I visit home is awaiting repairs. Gahhhh!!!
And I'm not feeling well.
I'm so tragic!
Showing posts with label ill. Show all posts
Showing posts with label ill. Show all posts
Monday, 28 December 2009
Wednesday, 24 June 2009
Blogging From Bed
I'm on the verge on coming down with something.in the past couple of hours i have gone form the odd sniffle to feeling completely drained and having no energy even though I didn't have a very taxing day in the slightest. This sucks.
I need to go out running. I went for a two mile run on Sunday and walked about half of it. i've got a 5k run in August and a 10k run in September to prepare for but my immediate goal is to run the whole 2 mile route without stopping to walk. I shall do it. Unfortunately I don't know if I even have the energy to drag my carcass to the supermarket later for some Beechams nevermind pounding the street of Saff London.
So for the time being I shall continue to lie in bed. Reading ("A Million Little Pieces" by James Frey) and waiting on a director or two to call me with the outcome of last night's auditions. I audition for two play (with the same theatre company) and there is one role in particular that I really want. It's a lead role and it will be tough to do but I think I can do it and I really want it. Trying to be positive but it doesn't help knowing that a former actress/current drama teachers auditioned after me. Not fair. If you're a professional actor then go audition for a professional production. Leave us amateurs to the amdram. Grrrr!
Tomorrow I'm havin a psychic reading done for a TV show. I have all this free time and can't afford to do anythign with it so I signed up for this recording. It's something do after all, which beats sitting in, being bored, losing the plot and obsessing about things I shouldn't obsess about.
I need to go out running. I went for a two mile run on Sunday and walked about half of it. i've got a 5k run in August and a 10k run in September to prepare for but my immediate goal is to run the whole 2 mile route without stopping to walk. I shall do it. Unfortunately I don't know if I even have the energy to drag my carcass to the supermarket later for some Beechams nevermind pounding the street of Saff London.
So for the time being I shall continue to lie in bed. Reading ("A Million Little Pieces" by James Frey) and waiting on a director or two to call me with the outcome of last night's auditions. I audition for two play (with the same theatre company) and there is one role in particular that I really want. It's a lead role and it will be tough to do but I think I can do it and I really want it. Trying to be positive but it doesn't help knowing that a former actress/current drama teachers auditioned after me. Not fair. If you're a professional actor then go audition for a professional production. Leave us amateurs to the amdram. Grrrr!
Tomorrow I'm havin a psychic reading done for a TV show. I have all this free time and can't afford to do anythign with it so I signed up for this recording. It's something do after all, which beats sitting in, being bored, losing the plot and obsessing about things I shouldn't obsess about.
Monday, 29 December 2008
Sick Again!
After a restless night of sleep I finally got up and made friends with the toilet bowl. I had a couple of hours sleep then got up to change my bus ticket back to London then went back to bed and that's where I stayed until 6:30 this evening. And I'm still exhausted. And annoyed that I'm ill once again. Just as the nasty cough was beginning to subside I now have what feels like a tummy bug. Gah! When I'm back in London I will definitely get back to the yoga and running. I also need to eat better too. Once I'm feeling better I can begin to put the "Change Life In 2009 - Positivity & Zen!" plan into action.
I have to call in sick to work tomorrow morning. I hate doing that.
I have to call in sick to work tomorrow morning. I hate doing that.
Wednesday, 17 December 2008
Out Of It
I've been really ill since Saturday and have barely ate anything since then. Went to bed at 2am hoping to sleep off a bit of tension that had set in my forehead but woke to an awful headache which made me feel sick everything I moved. I was feeling a bit better last night but after a nice of extreme dreaming and crazy sleep, I now feel quite peculiar. Part of me feels like how I did when I was on the co-codemol during my hospital stay. Drowsy is probably the best word for it. I'm physically & mentally drowsy.
Despite feeling awful on Saturday I still had one more show to do and I managed to pull myself together for that with the help of a toasted muffin and cup of tea at the venue. However as soon as I spoke my first line my voice began to go. As the play progressed I got hoarser and hoarser and I spent the aftershow party asleep on the sofa. Sunday and Monday was split between lying down and/or sleeping and not much else.
Hopefully tonight I'll have enough energy to give the flat a tidy, wash some clothes ( and myself) and begin to pack. I'm going back home (via bus) this weekend to spend Xmas with the family. Haven't decided on a date yet but it'll probably be a Saturday. Hopefully the lunatics back home will control themselves for a little while so I can get a proper rest. Will be good to see my neice again. I saw her last when she was two months old, she's five months old now and is probably completely different!
PS: Got word back from the woman about the Marathon places. I wasn't elligible for one as the places were only allocated for people at her company. Probably for the best, to ill to begin training now. Might go for the half-marathon in March instead.
Despite feeling awful on Saturday I still had one more show to do and I managed to pull myself together for that with the help of a toasted muffin and cup of tea at the venue. However as soon as I spoke my first line my voice began to go. As the play progressed I got hoarser and hoarser and I spent the aftershow party asleep on the sofa. Sunday and Monday was split between lying down and/or sleeping and not much else.
Hopefully tonight I'll have enough energy to give the flat a tidy, wash some clothes ( and myself) and begin to pack. I'm going back home (via bus) this weekend to spend Xmas with the family. Haven't decided on a date yet but it'll probably be a Saturday. Hopefully the lunatics back home will control themselves for a little while so I can get a proper rest. Will be good to see my neice again. I saw her last when she was two months old, she's five months old now and is probably completely different!
PS: Got word back from the woman about the Marathon places. I wasn't elligible for one as the places were only allocated for people at her company. Probably for the best, to ill to begin training now. Might go for the half-marathon in March instead.
Thursday, 11 September 2008
Wee Update
I'm still without home internet and out of a job too so I'm hammering out a quick update in an internet cafe while I have the chance.
Lots has gone on since I last wrote. Went to Edinburgh and had an amazing but exhausting time. However 3 days before the end of my trip I was hospitalised with a really bad eye infection. I spent a week in hospital up there and I'm still recovering. The infection (a severe bacterial ulcer on my cornea apparently) has cleared up but there's still a little bit of inflamation. The bad news is that it's left a scar over my cornea that's blurring my vision in that eye and it may never clear up, therefore alway affecting my site in that eye. Time will tell though so I just have to hope it fades enough that it becomes unoticeable. Or, as everyone else keeps telling me, I could havea cornea transplant. *shudder*
So fingers crossed. I'm going to eat better and take vitamins and also trying not to stress about being jobless (they ended it while I was in hospital!!!!) and money so I make as best a recovery as possible.
Right, back to the jobhunt. I SHOULD have home internet soon (it's BT though so don't count on it. I've only had this problem for 2 months now.) then I can write more about Edinburgh. The good stuff!
Lots has gone on since I last wrote. Went to Edinburgh and had an amazing but exhausting time. However 3 days before the end of my trip I was hospitalised with a really bad eye infection. I spent a week in hospital up there and I'm still recovering. The infection (a severe bacterial ulcer on my cornea apparently) has cleared up but there's still a little bit of inflamation. The bad news is that it's left a scar over my cornea that's blurring my vision in that eye and it may never clear up, therefore alway affecting my site in that eye. Time will tell though so I just have to hope it fades enough that it becomes unoticeable. Or, as everyone else keeps telling me, I could havea cornea transplant. *shudder*
So fingers crossed. I'm going to eat better and take vitamins and also trying not to stress about being jobless (they ended it while I was in hospital!!!!) and money so I make as best a recovery as possible.
Right, back to the jobhunt. I SHOULD have home internet soon (it's BT though so don't count on it. I've only had this problem for 2 months now.) then I can write more about Edinburgh. The good stuff!
Friday, 13 June 2008
Dublin
Final show tomorrow night and then on Sunday I'm off to Dublin for 3 days. I was supposed to be going to a Prince concert but the promoters cancelled (apparently they sold tickets before he'd even signed a contract) and have therefore buggered everything up for us. It's such bad timing at the moment as I don't have a lot of money and really need to keep working, but everything is booked and other people are excited to go so I'll go on the trip and then worry about finances when I get back.
Sucks that it has to be this way but can't be bitter about it otherwise I won't enjoy myself. I might get the chance to visit pregnant Sister. She might even give birth while I'm there!
So that's the plan for the next few days. Looking forward to having a lie in tomorrow and catching up on some sleep before I head of fto the theatre. I and so ill and tired, it's beyond belief.
Sucks that it has to be this way but can't be bitter about it otherwise I won't enjoy myself. I might get the chance to visit pregnant Sister. She might even give birth while I'm there!
So that's the plan for the next few days. Looking forward to having a lie in tomorrow and catching up on some sleep before I head of fto the theatre. I and so ill and tired, it's beyond belief.
Monday, 7 April 2008
Get Well Soon
I've spent the last week suffering from the cold and general run down-ness and exhaustion. I'm trying to be positive and tell myself it's butter to have got sick last week instead of this week... but I'm still ill! Still with cold and now getting a bit of a cold and I'm still exhausted. Now I'm officially tapering so I can just stuff myself with healthy but yummy & carby food and I only have to do a couple of easy runs so hopefully I should feel much better in 5 days.
I appreciated the snow yesterday. I tried do go for a run in it yesterday morning but ended up run-walking for 40 minutes. Oh well, I tried.
I appreciated the snow yesterday. I tried do go for a run in it yesterday morning but ended up run-walking for 40 minutes. Oh well, I tried.
Tuesday, 26 February 2008
After Show, Aftermath
I'm slowly getting over the events of the past two week. Slowly. I spent last week in a trance as I was so run down from doing the show the week before and I still had a busy evening schedule. Nothing ever really changes. I was also in quite a bit of pain due to a mishap at the aftershow party so that was quite draining and depressing too. More on that later.
The rest of the show run carried on without any drama until the final day. It was Saturday, we had two shows to do that day and most of us singing solos were lsoing our voices. I wasnt too bad as I didn't have a big chuck of solo bits to sing and my throat was in not as bad a state as some other, but I was still extremely worried especially as my friends were all coming to the evening show to see me, including Kelly who was flying in from home that afternoon to see me. I got through the matinee (one of the othe cast member's songs had to be cut to save her voice for the later show), I sang my song and I managed to croak out something half respectable. A few people backstage told me it still sounded good so I felt a bit comforted by that.
Then came the evening show as it really was quite unbelieveable. I had such a good run up to then and felt I gave good performances, however everything seemed to go wrong in my scenes on that final show. Props didn't work so we had to improvise, doors wouldn't shut that needed to be shut, some old woman fell flat on her face during one of our song & dance numbers, I messed up my lines a bit at one moment and had to recover from that. I felt quite annoyed at myself for jumping to the next line and did feel like tearing up in the interval, but it's something to learn from. I must remember to forbid my friends with big booming laughs to laugh when I am onstage as this can be quite distracting! I guess it all had to go wrong for me in at least one show, it will be something I can look back on and laugh about. The important thing is that the audience, unless they'd been to a previous show, didn't notice the mishaps so we seemed to do a good job or working around them.
Like with my play in December, we had another all night aftershow party. Cheesy music, alcohol (cola for me) and outrageous dancing. It was there I did myself a mischief. If doing a backward bend and falling on my head wasn't enough I then threw myself into doing the splits, however as I was wearing no shoes this time, I slid down faster than expected and pulled a hamstring. The rest of the night was spent with me limping around in pain and the odd outburst of freaking out about what my personal trainer would say. By 5:30am the party had definitely died down into a group of drunk people just biding their time in the theatre until the tube opened and we could all go home. Yet, by the time us sober/semi-sober people tidied and cleaned the theatre and rounded up everyone else, it was 8am when we finally left. After making it home with Kelly I passed out on the sofabed and snoozed for a couple of hours before getting up again, determined not to waste the day.
I took Monday off as I was in no state to work and on Tuesday I made my way to my personal training session waiting for my punishment. Lots of upper body work and a good hamstring stretch-out and the advice "don't be the hero" followed. Luckily now my leg is feeling much better (although I won't officially recover for another fortnight) and I'm getting back into my training schedule. I need to make up time out of action last week and with no show to do now and more time on my hands it's going to get a lot tougher. Help!
Pics of the show will follow as will a lot on pondering on what to do now, what to read, what acting course to take, should I try creative writing etc. I'm on a roll and I want it to stay that way.
The rest of the show run carried on without any drama until the final day. It was Saturday, we had two shows to do that day and most of us singing solos were lsoing our voices. I wasnt too bad as I didn't have a big chuck of solo bits to sing and my throat was in not as bad a state as some other, but I was still extremely worried especially as my friends were all coming to the evening show to see me, including Kelly who was flying in from home that afternoon to see me. I got through the matinee (one of the othe cast member's songs had to be cut to save her voice for the later show), I sang my song and I managed to croak out something half respectable. A few people backstage told me it still sounded good so I felt a bit comforted by that.
Then came the evening show as it really was quite unbelieveable. I had such a good run up to then and felt I gave good performances, however everything seemed to go wrong in my scenes on that final show. Props didn't work so we had to improvise, doors wouldn't shut that needed to be shut, some old woman fell flat on her face during one of our song & dance numbers, I messed up my lines a bit at one moment and had to recover from that. I felt quite annoyed at myself for jumping to the next line and did feel like tearing up in the interval, but it's something to learn from. I must remember to forbid my friends with big booming laughs to laugh when I am onstage as this can be quite distracting! I guess it all had to go wrong for me in at least one show, it will be something I can look back on and laugh about. The important thing is that the audience, unless they'd been to a previous show, didn't notice the mishaps so we seemed to do a good job or working around them.
Like with my play in December, we had another all night aftershow party. Cheesy music, alcohol (cola for me) and outrageous dancing. It was there I did myself a mischief. If doing a backward bend and falling on my head wasn't enough I then threw myself into doing the splits, however as I was wearing no shoes this time, I slid down faster than expected and pulled a hamstring. The rest of the night was spent with me limping around in pain and the odd outburst of freaking out about what my personal trainer would say. By 5:30am the party had definitely died down into a group of drunk people just biding their time in the theatre until the tube opened and we could all go home. Yet, by the time us sober/semi-sober people tidied and cleaned the theatre and rounded up everyone else, it was 8am when we finally left. After making it home with Kelly I passed out on the sofabed and snoozed for a couple of hours before getting up again, determined not to waste the day.
I took Monday off as I was in no state to work and on Tuesday I made my way to my personal training session waiting for my punishment. Lots of upper body work and a good hamstring stretch-out and the advice "don't be the hero" followed. Luckily now my leg is feeling much better (although I won't officially recover for another fortnight) and I'm getting back into my training schedule. I need to make up time out of action last week and with no show to do now and more time on my hands it's going to get a lot tougher. Help!
Pics of the show will follow as will a lot on pondering on what to do now, what to read, what acting course to take, should I try creative writing etc. I'm on a roll and I want it to stay that way.
Friday, 4 January 2008
Life in the New Year
Time for me to update this mofo! I began writing a blog on the night I came back to London but for some reason lost to will to finish it and crashed out on the sofa instead. I should have been welcoming Sergio into my new flat the following day, but due to a problem with his passport (it went missing for 3 hours) he arrived 24 hours later than planned on the Sunday.
It's been a lot of fun having him here. Although we haven't done many activties, we have been pissing around and talking rubbish and cracking ourselves up laughing at things that are only funny to us. We are planning a couple of theatre trips and dinner with friends while he is here.
New Years was spent with us making it to the Sounth Bank at 11:50pm and ending us wedged in the crowds of thousands. The crush got quite bad at one point and it was quite scary however, we survived and while trying to get out I got groped and kissed a few time by guys taking their chances with a girl who arms were wedge by her sides. Nice. We reached the Imax theatre and decided to keep walking in the opposite direction away from the crowds, perverts and the fights beaking out. We reached London Bridge and met up with a couple of guys from my play so got a few more "Happy New Year" wishes from them, then we headed home (thank God for 24 hours transport) for tea and toast. I can't remember what we did on New Years Day. Worring because I don't drink so can't blame it one alcohol.
Now things are getting back to pre-Christmas normality. Have been back at work for a couple of days now and rehearsals for the next show are ressuming tonight. Life will still feel a bit different as Sergio will be here so won't be getting back to my normal routine until the 18th. I haven't got around to thinking properly about Resolutions and I don't know if I'll bother this year. I've not felt well this week so all I need is a weekendful of sleep and too feel more human and then I can think about it more.
It's been a lot of fun having him here. Although we haven't done many activties, we have been pissing around and talking rubbish and cracking ourselves up laughing at things that are only funny to us. We are planning a couple of theatre trips and dinner with friends while he is here.
New Years was spent with us making it to the Sounth Bank at 11:50pm and ending us wedged in the crowds of thousands. The crush got quite bad at one point and it was quite scary however, we survived and while trying to get out I got groped and kissed a few time by guys taking their chances with a girl who arms were wedge by her sides. Nice. We reached the Imax theatre and decided to keep walking in the opposite direction away from the crowds, perverts and the fights beaking out. We reached London Bridge and met up with a couple of guys from my play so got a few more "Happy New Year" wishes from them, then we headed home (thank God for 24 hours transport) for tea and toast. I can't remember what we did on New Years Day. Worring because I don't drink so can't blame it one alcohol.
Now things are getting back to pre-Christmas normality. Have been back at work for a couple of days now and rehearsals for the next show are ressuming tonight. Life will still feel a bit different as Sergio will be here so won't be getting back to my normal routine until the 18th. I haven't got around to thinking properly about Resolutions and I don't know if I'll bother this year. I've not felt well this week so all I need is a weekendful of sleep and too feel more human and then I can think about it more.
Wednesday, 10 October 2007
Not Dead... Just Floating.
I'm not dead but at the moment I'm not feeling well. Tiredness, cold, funny going-ons inside and my head feels bunged up which in turn makes me feel disconnected from the real world.
I don't know where the time has gone these past few weeks. We're now rehearsing our comedy play 3 times a week now (as opening night is October 30th) which is the only constant ouside of work. However I still manage to fill up every day/evening with something and I'm not sure what.
I can count for some days, the fundraiser party I helped organise on Sept 26th, the Darren Hayes concert on Oct 3rd, going to see a play and support friends from another theatre company last Saturday etc. I also started back at Bikram yoga last week (to help detox, de-stress, regulate my emotions and get more energy) but I'm having difficulty fitting in regular sessions. I guess in between everything I've been sleeping and when I've not been sleeping, I've been buying shoes. Then I've slept some more. That seems to sum up the past 3 weeks.
Rehearsals start tonight for the December play and as knackered and tired as I am, I'm looking forward to it. I love the company, the people and the theatre and rehearsals space is in a really convienent place that's easy to get home from. Knowing me, I'll be moaning about "bloody rehearsals" in 5-6 weeks times but I always seem to do that. Rehearsals are alright, but it's the performance nights that I LOVE.
Speaking of performing, I need to do a lot of updating about all the Prince concerts and aftershow I attended since I last blogged. I'm thinking of making the whole experience into a report which I might so this weekend (no rehearsal on Saturday - Yay!). Something big happened and as soon as I feel better I need to reconnect with it and the inspiration it gave me. I also need to sing again (as soon as my cold ends). I'm doing two plays at the moment but I need to get a bit of music back in my life. I feel that more today that i have done lately. I'd love to be involved in a music/choir performance near Christmas so I'm on the lookout for something that suits at the moment.
I'm also looking forward to the next month or two as a lot of my favourite artists will be releasing music (Alicia Keys, Britney, India.Arie) and I can't wait to hear it all. I'm enjoying the thought of the rest of this rest going by in a flurry of music and performance and finding the time to have some singing lessons and to finally book a piano lesson... or five!
I don't know where the time has gone these past few weeks. We're now rehearsing our comedy play 3 times a week now (as opening night is October 30th) which is the only constant ouside of work. However I still manage to fill up every day/evening with something and I'm not sure what.
I can count for some days, the fundraiser party I helped organise on Sept 26th, the Darren Hayes concert on Oct 3rd, going to see a play and support friends from another theatre company last Saturday etc. I also started back at Bikram yoga last week (to help detox, de-stress, regulate my emotions and get more energy) but I'm having difficulty fitting in regular sessions. I guess in between everything I've been sleeping and when I've not been sleeping, I've been buying shoes. Then I've slept some more. That seems to sum up the past 3 weeks.
Rehearsals start tonight for the December play and as knackered and tired as I am, I'm looking forward to it. I love the company, the people and the theatre and rehearsals space is in a really convienent place that's easy to get home from. Knowing me, I'll be moaning about "bloody rehearsals" in 5-6 weeks times but I always seem to do that. Rehearsals are alright, but it's the performance nights that I LOVE.
Speaking of performing, I need to do a lot of updating about all the Prince concerts and aftershow I attended since I last blogged. I'm thinking of making the whole experience into a report which I might so this weekend (no rehearsal on Saturday - Yay!). Something big happened and as soon as I feel better I need to reconnect with it and the inspiration it gave me. I also need to sing again (as soon as my cold ends). I'm doing two plays at the moment but I need to get a bit of music back in my life. I feel that more today that i have done lately. I'd love to be involved in a music/choir performance near Christmas so I'm on the lookout for something that suits at the moment.
I'm also looking forward to the next month or two as a lot of my favourite artists will be releasing music (Alicia Keys, Britney, India.Arie) and I can't wait to hear it all. I'm enjoying the thought of the rest of this rest going by in a flurry of music and performance and finding the time to have some singing lessons and to finally book a piano lesson... or five!
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