Home

I'm home! Proper home, at the moment. The family home. I've been fitted for my bridesmaid dress and am taking it easy for the rest of my time here. Big Sister is coming around later today and bringing my 13 month old neice with her and I can't wait to see her (my neice, not Bog Sister - boring!).

I've been spending my time on the internet and/or contemplating life and all that sails in her.

Before I Go

Lots on my mind. So much has happened, so much still going on. I don't know what I will or won't address. I don't know if I want/can/need too talk about that. I couldn't possibly describe or talk about these past few months in a coherent way and I don't know if I'll try.

However, I'm off home tomorrow. To do bridemaid dress fitting things and Dad's secret birthday party things. It will be nice to have a break from the city I think. get home and get some fresh air, see my little 13 month old neice who's all grown up since the last time I saw her (at Christmas when she was 5.5 months). I've also had the idea come to me to go for a waddle down to the forest and lough near to where I live and soak up the natureness and stuff. Must pack some trainers then!

Maybe I can organise my thoughts better once I'm back.

(In a nutshell: Still out of work, still without a man, skinnier now, have done some acting work on camera, some photoshoots, lined up two plays to act in and preparing for some other possible shows in the near future too)

Words I Like

This was my horoscope a couple of days ago from MSN. Whatever you think about astrology, I like it regardless:

LEO - July 24th - August 23rd

Putting your heart into your work will have wonderful results. You're enormously
creative, and can develop new methods which are less expensive and more appealing. If you're looking for work, seek opportunities related to politics, architecture, or
banking. You could find just the sort of high profile job that brings out the best in
you. People respond well to your warm energy and attracting new clients and customers will make you popular with the boss.

Back Soon

Coming back. Bit by bit. Sorting out myself and my life.

Help

"Your darkest hours are your defining moments and greatest achievements."

MJ

So numb. In a daze. Can't believe he's gone. I don't know what's ahead now.

Blogging From Bed

I'm on the verge on coming down with something.in the past couple of hours i have gone form the odd sniffle to feeling completely drained and having no energy even though I didn't have a very taxing day in the slightest. This sucks.

I need to go out running. I went for a two mile run on Sunday and walked about half of it. i've got a 5k run in August and a 10k run in September to prepare for but my immediate goal is to run the whole 2 mile route without stopping to walk. I shall do it. Unfortunately I don't know if I even have the energy to drag my carcass to the supermarket later for some Beechams nevermind pounding the street of Saff London.

So for the time being I shall continue to lie in bed. Reading ("A Million Little Pieces" by James Frey) and waiting on a director or two to call me with the outcome of last night's auditions. I audition for two play (with the same theatre company) and there is one role in particular that I really want. It's a lead role and it will be tough to do but I think I can do it and I really want it. Trying to be positive but it doesn't help knowing that a former actress/current drama teachers auditioned after me. Not fair. If you're a professional actor then go audition for a professional production. Leave us amateurs to the amdram. Grrrr!

Tomorrow I'm havin a psychic reading done for a TV show. I have all this free time and can't afford to do anythign with it so I signed up for this recording. It's something do after all, which beats sitting in, being bored, losing the plot and obsessing about things I shouldn't obsess about.