I'm feeling quite happy about leaving January behind and moving on. It's been such a rollercoaster month full of (brief) happiness and sadness, frustration, anticipation, disappointment, inspiration etc. Now I'm looking forward to staying focused on a couple of projects and to grow and develop more as a person and a performer.
In February I will sort out my finances so I'm not always stressing out about them in the back of my mind. I will begin proper training for the London Marathon with my personal trainer. Until now I'm been making do with jogs here and there and yoga class but I need to train harder now so I am as prepared as I can be. It will cost a lot (the trainer) but it will be worth it. I will perform in my show. It's a silly, non-serious, fun role but I shall perform it as best I can and learn and develope more as a performer. I will hopefully become more relaxed on stage so I can perform better and show people (and myself) just exactly what I can do.
I also need some time to seriously consider some courses and classes I am interested in. I need to judge if they will be value for money and how they will benefit me in the long run. So lots of thinking and doing coming up in the next month.
Thursday, 31 January 2008
Tuesday, 22 January 2008
Time for Change
January has been a funny and confusing month which is unusual for me. I don't tend to get that depressed in January like everyone else does. While I enjoy the festive season, I'm eager for things to get back to normal so I can get on with achieving and doing much in my life, especially as every year I say to myself "This is THEE year, when everything will happen for me". Nothing really does happen but I believe it in that moment.
My current job has been trunddling along nicely and even though I'm understimulated in the workplace, it's not a place I dread to be when Sunday evenings roll around. I have noticed that this past week I have been sitting here slowly getting more and more miserable and frustrated with being rooted to one spot for so long each day when there's so much to do out there. I appreciate my job for the money it brings in and what it pays for and I've made no secret that I hope my contract will be renewed, but right now I want something to change. I need to use my time more productively. I have friends in jobs that they WANT to do, have trained for or is a step closer to where they want to be and meanwhile I'm still pissing aorund entering reams of data and chasing up people for uncompleted reports. I've done this for such a long time and all I'm doing is wasting my time and nothing frustrates me more.
On a smaller scale, I've also been thinking about where I live, if I could/should move etc. And study. And travel too. I need to sort my finances and then make some decisions this year.
I blame the recent trip to the palmreader for this. And life.
Btw: I hate T-Mobile. Go visit. ;-)
My current job has been trunddling along nicely and even though I'm understimulated in the workplace, it's not a place I dread to be when Sunday evenings roll around. I have noticed that this past week I have been sitting here slowly getting more and more miserable and frustrated with being rooted to one spot for so long each day when there's so much to do out there. I appreciate my job for the money it brings in and what it pays for and I've made no secret that I hope my contract will be renewed, but right now I want something to change. I need to use my time more productively. I have friends in jobs that they WANT to do, have trained for or is a step closer to where they want to be and meanwhile I'm still pissing aorund entering reams of data and chasing up people for uncompleted reports. I've done this for such a long time and all I'm doing is wasting my time and nothing frustrates me more.
On a smaller scale, I've also been thinking about where I live, if I could/should move etc. And study. And travel too. I need to sort my finances and then make some decisions this year.
I blame the recent trip to the palmreader for this. And life.
Btw: I hate T-Mobile. Go visit. ;-)
Thursday, 10 January 2008
Life In January
Things seem to be ticking along nicely and life is getting back to it's busy and "timeless" self. Rehearsals are underway for the next show I will be in (in February), my social life is slowly getting more busy, I've bought a 10-class card for Bikram yoga becuase I need it after Christmas and training is underway for the Marathon in 3 months.
Hopefully my job contract is being extended for another couple of months as this will give me the chance to save some money and avoid jobhunting at the moment as I really can't be bothered with it and despite the job being boring, I'm happy where I am. Plus, my computer is on it's last legs and will need to be replaced very soon. I have an eye on one but will need confirmation on my job situation before I hand over my dinheiro.
Sergio is leaving on Tuesday so I should be able to get into a better routine. I will miss him though. despite Christmas and New Years and the party season being well and truly over it still doesn't feel like I've gone back to the regular "January Blues" life as things are always interesting when he's around. Maybe when he leaves and I have to force myself out of bed at 6am for runs/classes in the gym THEN the humdrum of normal life will catch up with me but for now everything's just dandy. Nothing is perfect but everything is rolling along nicely.
Hopefully my job contract is being extended for another couple of months as this will give me the chance to save some money and avoid jobhunting at the moment as I really can't be bothered with it and despite the job being boring, I'm happy where I am. Plus, my computer is on it's last legs and will need to be replaced very soon. I have an eye on one but will need confirmation on my job situation before I hand over my dinheiro.
Sergio is leaving on Tuesday so I should be able to get into a better routine. I will miss him though. despite Christmas and New Years and the party season being well and truly over it still doesn't feel like I've gone back to the regular "January Blues" life as things are always interesting when he's around. Maybe when he leaves and I have to force myself out of bed at 6am for runs/classes in the gym THEN the humdrum of normal life will catch up with me but for now everything's just dandy. Nothing is perfect but everything is rolling along nicely.
Friday, 4 January 2008
Life in the New Year
Time for me to update this mofo! I began writing a blog on the night I came back to London but for some reason lost to will to finish it and crashed out on the sofa instead. I should have been welcoming Sergio into my new flat the following day, but due to a problem with his passport (it went missing for 3 hours) he arrived 24 hours later than planned on the Sunday.
It's been a lot of fun having him here. Although we haven't done many activties, we have been pissing around and talking rubbish and cracking ourselves up laughing at things that are only funny to us. We are planning a couple of theatre trips and dinner with friends while he is here.
New Years was spent with us making it to the Sounth Bank at 11:50pm and ending us wedged in the crowds of thousands. The crush got quite bad at one point and it was quite scary however, we survived and while trying to get out I got groped and kissed a few time by guys taking their chances with a girl who arms were wedge by her sides. Nice. We reached the Imax theatre and decided to keep walking in the opposite direction away from the crowds, perverts and the fights beaking out. We reached London Bridge and met up with a couple of guys from my play so got a few more "Happy New Year" wishes from them, then we headed home (thank God for 24 hours transport) for tea and toast. I can't remember what we did on New Years Day. Worring because I don't drink so can't blame it one alcohol.
Now things are getting back to pre-Christmas normality. Have been back at work for a couple of days now and rehearsals for the next show are ressuming tonight. Life will still feel a bit different as Sergio will be here so won't be getting back to my normal routine until the 18th. I haven't got around to thinking properly about Resolutions and I don't know if I'll bother this year. I've not felt well this week so all I need is a weekendful of sleep and too feel more human and then I can think about it more.
It's been a lot of fun having him here. Although we haven't done many activties, we have been pissing around and talking rubbish and cracking ourselves up laughing at things that are only funny to us. We are planning a couple of theatre trips and dinner with friends while he is here.
New Years was spent with us making it to the Sounth Bank at 11:50pm and ending us wedged in the crowds of thousands. The crush got quite bad at one point and it was quite scary however, we survived and while trying to get out I got groped and kissed a few time by guys taking their chances with a girl who arms were wedge by her sides. Nice. We reached the Imax theatre and decided to keep walking in the opposite direction away from the crowds, perverts and the fights beaking out. We reached London Bridge and met up with a couple of guys from my play so got a few more "Happy New Year" wishes from them, then we headed home (thank God for 24 hours transport) for tea and toast. I can't remember what we did on New Years Day. Worring because I don't drink so can't blame it one alcohol.
Now things are getting back to pre-Christmas normality. Have been back at work for a couple of days now and rehearsals for the next show are ressuming tonight. Life will still feel a bit different as Sergio will be here so won't be getting back to my normal routine until the 18th. I haven't got around to thinking properly about Resolutions and I don't know if I'll bother this year. I've not felt well this week so all I need is a weekendful of sleep and too feel more human and then I can think about it more.
Sunday, 23 December 2007
Reporting From Home - Part 1
I arrived home yesterday morning after a long bus journey and then my ferry was delayed. Slept a bit, shouted a bit, went to church and did some shopping today. Now I'm absolutely knackered. I haven't done that much but maybe it's the events of the past few weeks/months catching up on me.
Will keep this brief as family members could sneak up behind me and read this. I'd prefer them not to know. I'm here, I made it, I had my curry chips and that made me happy. Will report back soon when I have the energy and the house is quieter.
Will keep this brief as family members could sneak up behind me and read this. I'd prefer them not to know. I'm here, I made it, I had my curry chips and that made me happy. Will report back soon when I have the energy and the house is quieter.
Thursday, 20 December 2007
Homeward Bound
I have just decided in the past 20 mins to travel back home for the holidays tomorrow, rather than leave it to Saturday or Sunday night. I think the main reason is that right now I feel absolutely knackered and I just want to get on that bus with my iPods and spend the next 12 hours snoozing and listening to music on my way to the ferry depot. It also means that hopefully Saturday (night) should be quite chilled at home as most of the family will be out socialising so I can relax a little bit and watch the Strictly Come Dancing Final. Plus arriving on Saturday morning instead of Sunday/Monday morning makes it less of a flying visit (as I'll be coming back to London on Friday night) so less chance for my mother to make me feel guilty about not visiting enough.
However, I feel so depressed at the thought of returning back to the chaos and disorder that we've built our family and home upon. God give me strength.
However, I feel so depressed at the thought of returning back to the chaos and disorder that we've built our family and home upon. God give me strength.
Tuesday, 18 December 2007
The Aftermath
It had been my plan to update the blog much sooner but I was ill for over a week straight after finishing my play. I wasn't sleeping well, having trouble breathing and the thought of eating food made me feel sick. So I've managed to lose another 6lbs in the process of not eating yet still having to zip around London, working, shopping, socialising etc. so now my appitite is returning, I will need to get back into the gym.
Where it not for the 2 hours of sleep I had the Sunday before last, then I woud have wrote about finishing our run of plays and the aftershow party. A party that involved a group of us staying in the theatre until 5:30am, drinking, dancing and singing "All That Jazz". The original plan was to wait until morning time when the trains ran again to get home without taking the night bus but at 5:30 me & two others, finding it impossible to sleep on the sofas while Barry White and Motown were being blasted out, fell into a taxi and paid for the privledge of getting home. Truly a surreal and fun night and it was all tucked away in a wee corner of Central London, hidden from view.
On Friday night we were back at the theatre for it's annual Christmas party. I loved it last year and I loved it this year. I also tried Apple & Mango J2O for the first time and found it delish. I failed miserabley on the party games, but had fun with my play mates and us singing around a piano. Most of us left around 12am this time to get home. I was too tired form a week of averaging 4 hours sleep each night to push myself to party through the night this time.
Now my play is finished (rehearsals have already begun for the next one!), the parties are over (until Friday night) and work is winding down, it's shocking to think that next week will be Christmas Day. I still have presents to buy and need to sort out my tickets home for the holidays. Despite having to return to my MADHOUSE where my family live, I'm looking forward to going home and sleeping. I think I'm delibertly holding back from a really good lie-in so I can take it at my parents house and hopefully avoid the chaos happening below me.
I have more to say but I've off out ice-skating with some of the cast in 10 mins. Half of us don't have tickets for the rink but we're hoping that other people may have pulled out at the last minute freeing up some tickets. If not, we plan to get drunk (for me, on Coca-Cola) around the rink and gossip.
Back later.
Where it not for the 2 hours of sleep I had the Sunday before last, then I woud have wrote about finishing our run of plays and the aftershow party. A party that involved a group of us staying in the theatre until 5:30am, drinking, dancing and singing "All That Jazz". The original plan was to wait until morning time when the trains ran again to get home without taking the night bus but at 5:30 me & two others, finding it impossible to sleep on the sofas while Barry White and Motown were being blasted out, fell into a taxi and paid for the privledge of getting home. Truly a surreal and fun night and it was all tucked away in a wee corner of Central London, hidden from view.
On Friday night we were back at the theatre for it's annual Christmas party. I loved it last year and I loved it this year. I also tried Apple & Mango J2O for the first time and found it delish. I failed miserabley on the party games, but had fun with my play mates and us singing around a piano. Most of us left around 12am this time to get home. I was too tired form a week of averaging 4 hours sleep each night to push myself to party through the night this time.
Now my play is finished (rehearsals have already begun for the next one!), the parties are over (until Friday night) and work is winding down, it's shocking to think that next week will be Christmas Day. I still have presents to buy and need to sort out my tickets home for the holidays. Despite having to return to my MADHOUSE where my family live, I'm looking forward to going home and sleeping. I think I'm delibertly holding back from a really good lie-in so I can take it at my parents house and hopefully avoid the chaos happening below me.
I have more to say but I've off out ice-skating with some of the cast in 10 mins. Half of us don't have tickets for the rink but we're hoping that other people may have pulled out at the last minute freeing up some tickets. If not, we plan to get drunk (for me, on Coca-Cola) around the rink and gossip.
Back later.
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