Only Positive Things

I'm trying to write something that's not all about me despairing about not having a job (still jobhunting, finally have an interview on Thursday) or my broken eye (infection gone but the huge scar is buggering up my sight and I've got the wait up to 6 months to see if/how much it fades) and that's probably the reason I haven't blogged in a while. So I'm going to focus on the positive stuff.

Despite everything I've been having a right old sociable time. Supporting the Edinburgh Cast in their new ventures, Friday night parties are dragged out until Sundays and finally getting some good quality rehearsals down for the show I'm in this week. it's come around sooner than expected, what with all the interuptions I've had in my life in the past 6 weeks, but I'm looking forward to evening time this week. It's always good to get back out on stage especially as this part, as small as it is, is a lot more juicy that the previous role.

I'm hoping things are going to look up after this week. This job I am being interviewed for sounds interesting and I think I would enjoy it there. Once I have a job I can begin to sort other things out and I can probably allow myself to sign up for a course or two and get on with all the things I was inspired to do while up in Edinburgh. I received an email last week from a writer/director I have worked with and we (the group) are planning lots of interesting performing things to do in the near future so I'm looking forward to working on that.

Time to end this mofo and redo my CV for an agency (major drag) and beautify myself for the show tomorrow night.

I Finally Have Internet!

I've had it since Thursday night actually. To quote my friend when I texted her the news: I haz shock!

Still stumbling through life in a half-blurry way. The eye is no better. It's healthy but I still can't see any better and they bluriness doesn't seem to be change. Still, must give it time... it'll probably be a gradual change so I can't expect any drastic improvement in a week. It's frustrating. I'm looking forward to the pupil dilating drops finally wearing off and my eye at least looking normal in the meantime.

Apart from that there's little else to talk about. I had a great weekend seeing Stevie Wonder in concert in Friday then have a lazy Saturday lying around eating junk and watching lots of (Prince) DVDs and TV. I'm preparing myself for jobhunting again this week and hopefully I'll have something, no matter how short a contract it is, by the end of the week. I just need one less thing to worry about. Make it happen!!!

Wee Update

I'm still without home internet and out of a job too so I'm hammering out a quick update in an internet cafe while I have the chance.

Lots has gone on since I last wrote. Went to Edinburgh and had an amazing but exhausting time. However 3 days before the end of my trip I was hospitalised with a really bad eye infection. I spent a week in hospital up there and I'm still recovering. The infection (a severe bacterial ulcer on my cornea apparently) has cleared up but there's still a little bit of inflamation. The bad news is that it's left a scar over my cornea that's blurring my vision in that eye and it may never clear up, therefore alway affecting my site in that eye. Time will tell though so I just have to hope it fades enough that it becomes unoticeable. Or, as everyone else keeps telling me, I could havea cornea transplant. *shudder*

So fingers crossed. I'm going to eat better and take vitamins and also trying not to stress about being jobless (they ended it while I was in hospital!!!!) and money so I make as best a recovery as possible.

Right, back to the jobhunt. I SHOULD have home internet soon (it's BT though so don't count on it. I've only had this problem for 2 months now.) then I can write more about Edinburgh. The good stuff!

Escape From London

I'm off tomorrow to stage manage my friend's show in the Edinburgh Fringe Festival. Hoping I don't screw up. I've only SMed one show before and it was on a much smaller scale to this one. Also finding the thought of two weeks off work and away from London quite daunting. There's still lots to do here and I should keep working and saving but I agreed to this a long time ago so there's no backing out now.

I might even learn to relax and bit and my insides might begin to feel better. These past couple of months have been upsetting and stressful and hopefully I can begin to sort things out now and relax a bit and move on. Yay! It's my birthday too in a couple of days (tasty Birthday dinner tonight!) so New Start, New Life and all that jazz. Looking forward to moving on jobwise. I need to do something that will not leave me frustratly in tears and wanting to rip my fingernails out!

I'm going to invest in some serious yoga classes when I get back. Partly to calm down and get my health back on track and pratly to prepare for my next role onstage as a glamourous lesbian!

Next blog: Edinburgh! :-)

Doing Stuff & Feeling Tired

Despite a promising early night on Friday the rest of my weekend was spent burning the candle at both ends and I am now quite knackered which is not good considering I'm performing this Wednesday - Saturday.

The weekend was spent attending various rehearsals for my own play and the musical I'll be working on in Edinburgh next month. In between those rehearsals and beyong I did a lot of socialising with cast members of both shows. Saturday night was spent in a swanky flat in London getting drunk on half a glass of champagne (I'm teetotal, it's not that hard), being pleasured by a massage chair and discovering my superb table football skills. I got home that night and had an admirable 7 hours sleep before I was back up and travelling to the theatre for our tech rehearsal.

After the tech ended earlier than usual I made my way over to the musical rehearsals and got to see the whole show performed which was a lot of fun. This is a fab show and I'd have loved to been part of it. Instead of being sensible by going home to wash a weeks worth of clothes and having an early night, I spent it in the pub downstairs with the guys from that cast, being loud and smutty as usual. I stuck to soft drinks and tea this time.

The fun never stops, as both shows are opening on Wednesday I've got a play dress rehearsal tonight and musical rehearsal tomorrow. If I could fit in a run somewhere that would be great (I'm feeling chubby at the moment) but it's not looking likely. Roll on Saturday and the chance to get some serious sleep!

Home From Home

I've been back all week but only writing now. I've not hada great week mentally and it's too tiring to go into details to even begin to explain what it's all about. It's a mixture of general tiredness plus having an awkward chat with my manager at work and then having an audition on Tuesday that I got really excited about, then disappointment as I probably won't get the part (in one of six small plays that will make up one whole show). Yes, I should be more positive and I know I did a good audition but the director has seen a few good people for this part and some of them, like me, he is friends with. I'm preparing myself for the worst anyway. In a nutshell tiredness + money woes + job woes + wanting something = crazy, tired, down in the dumps brain. However, I'm feeling a little better now.

This time last week I was back home and bonding with my newborn niece. I got to nurse her and feed her and helped my sister wash her. It's odd to think that my sister has a baby and I think it still hasn't sunk in for her too. I still have no desire to have children yet. Even though I couldn't stop staring at my niece and and fussing over her I'm still quite content to only have myself to look after. I took lots of pics but my suster has requested that I don't post any on the internet (on Bebo, Facebook etc.) and even though she doens't know about this blog I'll not chance it. So if you're a friend and a reeeeally interested then you can email me.

Today Is My Friday

I'm taking tomorrow off and will fly home to see my neice, sleep lots and gorge on curry chips. I'm looking forward to it at as it means the weekend begins tonight! As I have not moeny a tthe moment (not my fault, manager didn't sign off my timesheets) I'm also looking forward to not spending any money while I visit home. I have my mum to drive me to where I wanna go and she has a well-stocked fridge of food that I will guzzle.

Kicking off my long weekend by going to a play reading tonight at my theatre company, then home to play on my new computer. So glad it's arrived. I can start to feel normal again!