Thursday, 31 January 2008

The Last Day of the Month

I'm feeling quite happy about leaving January behind and moving on. It's been such a rollercoaster month full of (brief) happiness and sadness, frustration, anticipation, disappointment, inspiration etc. Now I'm looking forward to staying focused on a couple of projects and to grow and develop more as a person and a performer.

In February I will sort out my finances so I'm not always stressing out about them in the back of my mind. I will begin proper training for the London Marathon with my personal trainer. Until now I'm been making do with jogs here and there and yoga class but I need to train harder now so I am as prepared as I can be. It will cost a lot (the trainer) but it will be worth it. I will perform in my show. It's a silly, non-serious, fun role but I shall perform it as best I can and learn and develope more as a performer. I will hopefully become more relaxed on stage so I can perform better and show people (and myself) just exactly what I can do.

I also need some time to seriously consider some courses and classes I am interested in. I need to judge if they will be value for money and how they will benefit me in the long run. So lots of thinking and doing coming up in the next month.

Tuesday, 22 January 2008

Time for Change

January has been a funny and confusing month which is unusual for me. I don't tend to get that depressed in January like everyone else does. While I enjoy the festive season, I'm eager for things to get back to normal so I can get on with achieving and doing much in my life, especially as every year I say to myself "This is THEE year, when everything will happen for me". Nothing really does happen but I believe it in that moment.

My current job has been trunddling along nicely and even though I'm understimulated in the workplace, it's not a place I dread to be when Sunday evenings roll around. I have noticed that this past week I have been sitting here slowly getting more and more miserable and frustrated with being rooted to one spot for so long each day when there's so much to do out there. I appreciate my job for the money it brings in and what it pays for and I've made no secret that I hope my contract will be renewed, but right now I want something to change. I need to use my time more productively. I have friends in jobs that they WANT to do, have trained for or is a step closer to where they want to be and meanwhile I'm still pissing aorund entering reams of data and chasing up people for uncompleted reports. I've done this for such a long time and all I'm doing is wasting my time and nothing frustrates me more.

On a smaller scale, I've also been thinking about where I live, if I could/should move etc. And study. And travel too. I need to sort my finances and then make some decisions this year.

I blame the recent trip to the palmreader for this. And life.

Btw: I hate T-Mobile. Go visit. ;-)

Thursday, 10 January 2008

Life In January

Things seem to be ticking along nicely and life is getting back to it's busy and "timeless" self. Rehearsals are underway for the next show I will be in (in February), my social life is slowly getting more busy, I've bought a 10-class card for Bikram yoga becuase I need it after Christmas and training is underway for the Marathon in 3 months.

Hopefully my job contract is being extended for another couple of months as this will give me the chance to save some money and avoid jobhunting at the moment as I really can't be bothered with it and despite the job being boring, I'm happy where I am. Plus, my computer is on it's last legs and will need to be replaced very soon. I have an eye on one but will need confirmation on my job situation before I hand over my dinheiro.

Sergio is leaving on Tuesday so I should be able to get into a better routine. I will miss him though. despite Christmas and New Years and the party season being well and truly over it still doesn't feel like I've gone back to the regular "January Blues" life as things are always interesting when he's around. Maybe when he leaves and I have to force myself out of bed at 6am for runs/classes in the gym THEN the humdrum of normal life will catch up with me but for now everything's just dandy. Nothing is perfect but everything is rolling along nicely.

Friday, 4 January 2008

Life in the New Year

Time for me to update this mofo! I began writing a blog on the night I came back to London but for some reason lost to will to finish it and crashed out on the sofa instead. I should have been welcoming Sergio into my new flat the following day, but due to a problem with his passport (it went missing for 3 hours) he arrived 24 hours later than planned on the Sunday.

It's been a lot of fun having him here. Although we haven't done many activties, we have been pissing around and talking rubbish and cracking ourselves up laughing at things that are only funny to us. We are planning a couple of theatre trips and dinner with friends while he is here.

New Years was spent with us making it to the Sounth Bank at 11:50pm and ending us wedged in the crowds of thousands. The crush got quite bad at one point and it was quite scary however, we survived and while trying to get out I got groped and kissed a few time by guys taking their chances with a girl who arms were wedge by her sides. Nice. We reached the Imax theatre and decided to keep walking in the opposite direction away from the crowds, perverts and the fights beaking out. We reached London Bridge and met up with a couple of guys from my play so got a few more "Happy New Year" wishes from them, then we headed home (thank God for 24 hours transport) for tea and toast. I can't remember what we did on New Years Day. Worring because I don't drink so can't blame it one alcohol.

Now things are getting back to pre-Christmas normality. Have been back at work for a couple of days now and rehearsals for the next show are ressuming tonight. Life will still feel a bit different as Sergio will be here so won't be getting back to my normal routine until the 18th. I haven't got around to thinking properly about Resolutions and I don't know if I'll bother this year. I've not felt well this week so all I need is a weekendful of sleep and too feel more human and then I can think about it more.