Sunday 23 December 2007

Reporting From Home - Part 1

I arrived home yesterday morning after a long bus journey and then my ferry was delayed. Slept a bit, shouted a bit, went to church and did some shopping today. Now I'm absolutely knackered. I haven't done that much but maybe it's the events of the past few weeks/months catching up on me.

Will keep this brief as family members could sneak up behind me and read this. I'd prefer them not to know. I'm here, I made it, I had my curry chips and that made me happy. Will report back soon when I have the energy and the house is quieter.

Thursday 20 December 2007

Homeward Bound

I have just decided in the past 20 mins to travel back home for the holidays tomorrow, rather than leave it to Saturday or Sunday night. I think the main reason is that right now I feel absolutely knackered and I just want to get on that bus with my iPods and spend the next 12 hours snoozing and listening to music on my way to the ferry depot. It also means that hopefully Saturday (night) should be quite chilled at home as most of the family will be out socialising so I can relax a little bit and watch the Strictly Come Dancing Final. Plus arriving on Saturday morning instead of Sunday/Monday morning makes it less of a flying visit (as I'll be coming back to London on Friday night) so less chance for my mother to make me feel guilty about not visiting enough.

However, I feel so depressed at the thought of returning back to the chaos and disorder that we've built our family and home upon. God give me strength.

Tuesday 18 December 2007

The Aftermath

It had been my plan to update the blog much sooner but I was ill for over a week straight after finishing my play. I wasn't sleeping well, having trouble breathing and the thought of eating food made me feel sick. So I've managed to lose another 6lbs in the process of not eating yet still having to zip around London, working, shopping, socialising etc. so now my appitite is returning, I will need to get back into the gym.

Where it not for the 2 hours of sleep I had the Sunday before last, then I woud have wrote about finishing our run of plays and the aftershow party. A party that involved a group of us staying in the theatre until 5:30am, drinking, dancing and singing "All That Jazz". The original plan was to wait until morning time when the trains ran again to get home without taking the night bus but at 5:30 me & two others, finding it impossible to sleep on the sofas while Barry White and Motown were being blasted out, fell into a taxi and paid for the privledge of getting home. Truly a surreal and fun night and it was all tucked away in a wee corner of Central London, hidden from view.

On Friday night we were back at the theatre for it's annual Christmas party. I loved it last year and I loved it this year. I also tried Apple & Mango J2O for the first time and found it delish. I failed miserabley on the party games, but had fun with my play mates and us singing around a piano. Most of us left around 12am this time to get home. I was too tired form a week of averaging 4 hours sleep each night to push myself to party through the night this time.

Now my play is finished (rehearsals have already begun for the next one!), the parties are over (until Friday night) and work is winding down, it's shocking to think that next week will be Christmas Day. I still have presents to buy and need to sort out my tickets home for the holidays. Despite having to return to my MADHOUSE where my family live, I'm looking forward to going home and sleeping. I think I'm delibertly holding back from a really good lie-in so I can take it at my parents house and hopefully avoid the chaos happening below me.

I have more to say but I've off out ice-skating with some of the cast in 10 mins. Half of us don't have tickets for the rink but we're hoping that other people may have pulled out at the last minute freeing up some tickets. If not, we plan to get drunk (for me, on Coca-Cola) around the rink and gossip.

Back later.

Saturday 8 December 2007

A Round-Up Of Events

It's late at night (12:28am). Sister is in the next room sleeping. Her brief visit ends tomorrow. My flat is in a better and tidier state and I'm going to keep it that way.

I have performed my play 3 times now. Nothing big has gone wrong so far. Tomorrow night is the last show and then we have the aftershow party.

I saw the encore of the Take That concert tonight after a nightmare with our ticket. Got a wave from the band, at the very end of the concert, behind the stage as they were leaving.

I gave blood on Thursday and after the actual donation I bleed all over the waiting room floor and my lovely teal material shoes, as my punture wound didn't heal up properly. It eventually healed up after applying a wad of paper towels and alot of pressure to it. Don't be discouraged from donating yourself, it wasn't serious and doesn't happen a lot.

I have lost 1/2 a stone.

I am happy AND sad.

My director wants me to belive that my performance is better than I think it is. This gives me a little bit of hope for myself. I'm going to miss the people I've worked with in this show when it ends.