I've just had my yummy banana porridge and wholemeal toast breakfast and am now sipping some Raspberry & Echinacea tea and trying to stay healthy while I procrastinate (instead of sorting out that report I was approached about yesterday). Yesterday morning I woke up completely shattered and was so tired throughout the entire day. This morning I feel a little better. Still tired, which is to be expected with a schedule like mine at the moment, but just getting out of bed alone did not exhaust me so that's an improvement.
I still have 4 more shows to do and I'm looking forward to doing them all even though it feels like I've done the entire run already. Opening night went well despite nerves a a slight technical hitch in one of the scenes (not mine). When i had a moment to pause I did find myself feeling sick with nerves at having to singing solo (in places) in front of an audience, but when it came time to do it I pulled it off, surprising a couple of people who knew me but didn't know I could sing. That was encouraging and I was raring to go sing again on the second night of the show. Come Saturday night I will be probably be sick with nerves again as I'll have quite a few friends in the audience watching me and anticipating my singing number. Eeeek! I have to remember that I've sung in public now and I didn't die so what the worst that can happen when I sing again?
Despite the tiredness and other things.stresses in my life I am really happy to be doing this and the thrill of every show just reminds me why I love doing this so much and why I put myself through all this. I hope this year I can finally take a big step away from the corporate life and move closer to the creative life.
Thursday, 14 February 2008
Monday, 11 February 2008
Don't Stop Moving
As I didn't have the chance to do it at the weekend, I went for my 30 minute non-stop running at lunchtime today. I was pleasently surprised at how I coped with it. It seemed to be a lot easier than the last time I did it/ Even though I wasn't in a pretty state near the end it wasn't as painful as the last time and I noticed that it took longer for me to feel out of breath and I didn't feel shattered upon completing the 30 minutes (am feelign a little sleepy at the moment but it's nt a quick walk won't sort out). I'm hoping it wasn't a fluke and that the small amount of training that I've done so far is paying off. I'm more excited about my future runs and am raring to go. However, I need to not wear myself out, especially this week.
I had a busy weekend filled with rehearsals, dance rehearsals and a very long tech rehearsal. We spent 11 hours at the theatre last night and wI as so over-tired that I had to do the splits and joke about slang words (for ladies private parts!) repeatedly to keep me sane. I also did my fair share of socialising at the weekend too. What's wrong with me? I'm becoming normal! On Friday night the cast of our show all had dinner out at an Indian restaurant which was delicious and afterwards went to the pub for drinks and gossip. I should have taken it easy on Saturday night but meet up with some friends (from my previous show) and we went out for Lebanese food. At the restaurant we proceeded to have the filthiest conversation that the other diners ever had the misfortune to hear and I doubt that we will be allowed back in the establishment next time. It was such a laugh though and well worth buring the candle at both ends and spending too much money for.
Today is Monday which means that after work I have the dress rehearsal which hopefully won't go on too late, after which I will be racing home for some serious Zzzzzzs in preparation of the first performance tomorrow night. Work, run, perform, work, run, perform.... will be the plan for the next 5 days. Hopefully I'll be able to fit eating, washing and sleeping in somewhere. Wish me luck!
I had a busy weekend filled with rehearsals, dance rehearsals and a very long tech rehearsal. We spent 11 hours at the theatre last night and wI as so over-tired that I had to do the splits and joke about slang words (for ladies private parts!) repeatedly to keep me sane. I also did my fair share of socialising at the weekend too. What's wrong with me? I'm becoming normal! On Friday night the cast of our show all had dinner out at an Indian restaurant which was delicious and afterwards went to the pub for drinks and gossip. I should have taken it easy on Saturday night but meet up with some friends (from my previous show) and we went out for Lebanese food. At the restaurant we proceeded to have the filthiest conversation that the other diners ever had the misfortune to hear and I doubt that we will be allowed back in the establishment next time. It was such a laugh though and well worth buring the candle at both ends and spending too much money for.
Today is Monday which means that after work I have the dress rehearsal which hopefully won't go on too late, after which I will be racing home for some serious Zzzzzzs in preparation of the first performance tomorrow night. Work, run, perform, work, run, perform.... will be the plan for the next 5 days. Hopefully I'll be able to fit eating, washing and sleeping in somewhere. Wish me luck!
Wednesday, 6 February 2008
Marathon Training Stuff
I've got about 10/15 minutes to kill here before I head off to the gym for my daily-ish run. I guess I can now say that training for the marathon is well underway and with less than 10 weeks to do I should hope so!
Training by myself was getting me nowhere fast so I'm paying precious pounds for a personal trainer and as expensive as he is/will be I feel much more confident about running the marathon now for doing it. I've always given up running and turned into a wheezing mess after a couple of minutes but on Friday I was astonished to complete a 30 minute run without stopping. The difference here was that my trainer never left the treadmill while I was on it and was noting down my heartrate at various times to gain an accurate reading of my fitness so I felt that I had no choice but to keep on running. I have learned that as tired as I may feel initially, not to give up straight away. If I do that I may just surprise myself.
So now I have a training plan and a weekly workout session with the trainer which I must rigidly stick to if I'm to have any hope of crossing that finishing line at 26.2 miles with my limbs and health still intact. I need to do a walk-run Monday to Thursday, have Friday off, do a non-stop 30 min un on Saturdays and then a long (1-2 hours) walk-run on Sundays. God knows how I'm going to stick to this next week with my show taking place Tuesday - Saturday on top of my full-time job. I'll also have to find time to rest and sleep on top of all this so I'm in good form the running and shows. I'll find a way.
After next weekend finding time to train should be a lot easier as for the first time in 8 months I will not be rehearsing and/or performing in a show. I'm slightly agitated about this but I need to realise that it's for the best and I CAN have a little break from doing shows at times. I just need to abstain for 2 months then after April 13th I can sing, dance and act until my wee heart's content!
Training by myself was getting me nowhere fast so I'm paying precious pounds for a personal trainer and as expensive as he is/will be I feel much more confident about running the marathon now for doing it. I've always given up running and turned into a wheezing mess after a couple of minutes but on Friday I was astonished to complete a 30 minute run without stopping. The difference here was that my trainer never left the treadmill while I was on it and was noting down my heartrate at various times to gain an accurate reading of my fitness so I felt that I had no choice but to keep on running. I have learned that as tired as I may feel initially, not to give up straight away. If I do that I may just surprise myself.
So now I have a training plan and a weekly workout session with the trainer which I must rigidly stick to if I'm to have any hope of crossing that finishing line at 26.2 miles with my limbs and health still intact. I need to do a walk-run Monday to Thursday, have Friday off, do a non-stop 30 min un on Saturdays and then a long (1-2 hours) walk-run on Sundays. God knows how I'm going to stick to this next week with my show taking place Tuesday - Saturday on top of my full-time job. I'll also have to find time to rest and sleep on top of all this so I'm in good form the running and shows. I'll find a way.
After next weekend finding time to train should be a lot easier as for the first time in 8 months I will not be rehearsing and/or performing in a show. I'm slightly agitated about this but I need to realise that it's for the best and I CAN have a little break from doing shows at times. I just need to abstain for 2 months then after April 13th I can sing, dance and act until my wee heart's content!
Thursday, 31 January 2008
The Last Day of the Month
I'm feeling quite happy about leaving January behind and moving on. It's been such a rollercoaster month full of (brief) happiness and sadness, frustration, anticipation, disappointment, inspiration etc. Now I'm looking forward to staying focused on a couple of projects and to grow and develop more as a person and a performer.
In February I will sort out my finances so I'm not always stressing out about them in the back of my mind. I will begin proper training for the London Marathon with my personal trainer. Until now I'm been making do with jogs here and there and yoga class but I need to train harder now so I am as prepared as I can be. It will cost a lot (the trainer) but it will be worth it. I will perform in my show. It's a silly, non-serious, fun role but I shall perform it as best I can and learn and develope more as a performer. I will hopefully become more relaxed on stage so I can perform better and show people (and myself) just exactly what I can do.
I also need some time to seriously consider some courses and classes I am interested in. I need to judge if they will be value for money and how they will benefit me in the long run. So lots of thinking and doing coming up in the next month.
In February I will sort out my finances so I'm not always stressing out about them in the back of my mind. I will begin proper training for the London Marathon with my personal trainer. Until now I'm been making do with jogs here and there and yoga class but I need to train harder now so I am as prepared as I can be. It will cost a lot (the trainer) but it will be worth it. I will perform in my show. It's a silly, non-serious, fun role but I shall perform it as best I can and learn and develope more as a performer. I will hopefully become more relaxed on stage so I can perform better and show people (and myself) just exactly what I can do.
I also need some time to seriously consider some courses and classes I am interested in. I need to judge if they will be value for money and how they will benefit me in the long run. So lots of thinking and doing coming up in the next month.
Tuesday, 22 January 2008
Time for Change
January has been a funny and confusing month which is unusual for me. I don't tend to get that depressed in January like everyone else does. While I enjoy the festive season, I'm eager for things to get back to normal so I can get on with achieving and doing much in my life, especially as every year I say to myself "This is THEE year, when everything will happen for me". Nothing really does happen but I believe it in that moment.
My current job has been trunddling along nicely and even though I'm understimulated in the workplace, it's not a place I dread to be when Sunday evenings roll around. I have noticed that this past week I have been sitting here slowly getting more and more miserable and frustrated with being rooted to one spot for so long each day when there's so much to do out there. I appreciate my job for the money it brings in and what it pays for and I've made no secret that I hope my contract will be renewed, but right now I want something to change. I need to use my time more productively. I have friends in jobs that they WANT to do, have trained for or is a step closer to where they want to be and meanwhile I'm still pissing aorund entering reams of data and chasing up people for uncompleted reports. I've done this for such a long time and all I'm doing is wasting my time and nothing frustrates me more.
On a smaller scale, I've also been thinking about where I live, if I could/should move etc. And study. And travel too. I need to sort my finances and then make some decisions this year.
I blame the recent trip to the palmreader for this. And life.
Btw: I hate T-Mobile. Go visit. ;-)
My current job has been trunddling along nicely and even though I'm understimulated in the workplace, it's not a place I dread to be when Sunday evenings roll around. I have noticed that this past week I have been sitting here slowly getting more and more miserable and frustrated with being rooted to one spot for so long each day when there's so much to do out there. I appreciate my job for the money it brings in and what it pays for and I've made no secret that I hope my contract will be renewed, but right now I want something to change. I need to use my time more productively. I have friends in jobs that they WANT to do, have trained for or is a step closer to where they want to be and meanwhile I'm still pissing aorund entering reams of data and chasing up people for uncompleted reports. I've done this for such a long time and all I'm doing is wasting my time and nothing frustrates me more.
On a smaller scale, I've also been thinking about where I live, if I could/should move etc. And study. And travel too. I need to sort my finances and then make some decisions this year.
I blame the recent trip to the palmreader for this. And life.
Btw: I hate T-Mobile. Go visit. ;-)
Thursday, 10 January 2008
Life In January
Things seem to be ticking along nicely and life is getting back to it's busy and "timeless" self. Rehearsals are underway for the next show I will be in (in February), my social life is slowly getting more busy, I've bought a 10-class card for Bikram yoga becuase I need it after Christmas and training is underway for the Marathon in 3 months.
Hopefully my job contract is being extended for another couple of months as this will give me the chance to save some money and avoid jobhunting at the moment as I really can't be bothered with it and despite the job being boring, I'm happy where I am. Plus, my computer is on it's last legs and will need to be replaced very soon. I have an eye on one but will need confirmation on my job situation before I hand over my dinheiro.
Sergio is leaving on Tuesday so I should be able to get into a better routine. I will miss him though. despite Christmas and New Years and the party season being well and truly over it still doesn't feel like I've gone back to the regular "January Blues" life as things are always interesting when he's around. Maybe when he leaves and I have to force myself out of bed at 6am for runs/classes in the gym THEN the humdrum of normal life will catch up with me but for now everything's just dandy. Nothing is perfect but everything is rolling along nicely.
Hopefully my job contract is being extended for another couple of months as this will give me the chance to save some money and avoid jobhunting at the moment as I really can't be bothered with it and despite the job being boring, I'm happy where I am. Plus, my computer is on it's last legs and will need to be replaced very soon. I have an eye on one but will need confirmation on my job situation before I hand over my dinheiro.
Sergio is leaving on Tuesday so I should be able to get into a better routine. I will miss him though. despite Christmas and New Years and the party season being well and truly over it still doesn't feel like I've gone back to the regular "January Blues" life as things are always interesting when he's around. Maybe when he leaves and I have to force myself out of bed at 6am for runs/classes in the gym THEN the humdrum of normal life will catch up with me but for now everything's just dandy. Nothing is perfect but everything is rolling along nicely.
Friday, 4 January 2008
Life in the New Year
Time for me to update this mofo! I began writing a blog on the night I came back to London but for some reason lost to will to finish it and crashed out on the sofa instead. I should have been welcoming Sergio into my new flat the following day, but due to a problem with his passport (it went missing for 3 hours) he arrived 24 hours later than planned on the Sunday.
It's been a lot of fun having him here. Although we haven't done many activties, we have been pissing around and talking rubbish and cracking ourselves up laughing at things that are only funny to us. We are planning a couple of theatre trips and dinner with friends while he is here.
New Years was spent with us making it to the Sounth Bank at 11:50pm and ending us wedged in the crowds of thousands. The crush got quite bad at one point and it was quite scary however, we survived and while trying to get out I got groped and kissed a few time by guys taking their chances with a girl who arms were wedge by her sides. Nice. We reached the Imax theatre and decided to keep walking in the opposite direction away from the crowds, perverts and the fights beaking out. We reached London Bridge and met up with a couple of guys from my play so got a few more "Happy New Year" wishes from them, then we headed home (thank God for 24 hours transport) for tea and toast. I can't remember what we did on New Years Day. Worring because I don't drink so can't blame it one alcohol.
Now things are getting back to pre-Christmas normality. Have been back at work for a couple of days now and rehearsals for the next show are ressuming tonight. Life will still feel a bit different as Sergio will be here so won't be getting back to my normal routine until the 18th. I haven't got around to thinking properly about Resolutions and I don't know if I'll bother this year. I've not felt well this week so all I need is a weekendful of sleep and too feel more human and then I can think about it more.
It's been a lot of fun having him here. Although we haven't done many activties, we have been pissing around and talking rubbish and cracking ourselves up laughing at things that are only funny to us. We are planning a couple of theatre trips and dinner with friends while he is here.
New Years was spent with us making it to the Sounth Bank at 11:50pm and ending us wedged in the crowds of thousands. The crush got quite bad at one point and it was quite scary however, we survived and while trying to get out I got groped and kissed a few time by guys taking their chances with a girl who arms were wedge by her sides. Nice. We reached the Imax theatre and decided to keep walking in the opposite direction away from the crowds, perverts and the fights beaking out. We reached London Bridge and met up with a couple of guys from my play so got a few more "Happy New Year" wishes from them, then we headed home (thank God for 24 hours transport) for tea and toast. I can't remember what we did on New Years Day. Worring because I don't drink so can't blame it one alcohol.
Now things are getting back to pre-Christmas normality. Have been back at work for a couple of days now and rehearsals for the next show are ressuming tonight. Life will still feel a bit different as Sergio will be here so won't be getting back to my normal routine until the 18th. I haven't got around to thinking properly about Resolutions and I don't know if I'll bother this year. I've not felt well this week so all I need is a weekendful of sleep and too feel more human and then I can think about it more.
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