I'm So Alone!

This is a blog purely to make Jordan feel better about his life.

• I have no job, have been looking for aaaaaages but no luck (although I do have an interview for a short-term role tomorrow)
• I have no money
• I life in a cold, ugly flat with scary, violent neighbours and close to a guy who follows me
• I'm chubby
• I have a scarred left eye and can't see out of it and will need to have a cornea transplant to fix it and when I think about it I realise how scary it's going to be.

Gahhhhh!!!!!

Wrecked!

The weekend is almost over and it heasn't even resgister with me yet. I suppose it's a side-effect of being out of work, every day's the same and weekends don't have the same effect as they doing when doing a 9-5 Monday to Friday.

I went to a friend's funeral on Friday morning and it was incredibly moving. I blubbed lots like the over-emotional empath that I am and just as I had composed myself "Will You Be There" came on as the coffin was being carried out of the church, which set me off again. Sometimes I really need to get a grip. We then attended the burial and the reception afterwards. The rest of the day was spent in a Costa Coffee stretching one drink each over four hours. How poor, starving artist of us (except we're not!).

Saturday was spent sleeping until I managed to drag myself out of the sleeping bag in front of the TV and trek over to a friend's house for dinner and a DVD. I then made the mistake of staying too late and having to make my way home at midnight when my tube line was suspended and trains had stopped for the day. It took a good 2.5 hours. Sometimes I hate London, why is transport so pathethic on a Saturday night? Sort it out!

As for today, I'm still in my dressing gown. I haven't gone outside. I've slept loads, watched TV. I really want chocolate but can't be bothered making walking to the shop on the main road. I have felt wrecked this weekend, probably not helped by having 3 hours sleep on Thursday night followed by an emotional day. And eating crap too. I watched footage on the news earlier about a half-marathon that took place today and it reminded me how I need to sort myself out and start running again.

Now I have a choice to make. Should I eat or should I snooze again?

Venturing Out

It looks wet and cold and sounds windy outside. Not nice but I have to go out in that later. I've been put forward for a short contract at my previous company so the consultant needs me to come in a properly register with his agency. I hate registering with job agencies. They have my CV with everything they need to know about me on it, but when I arrive I still have to complete all these forms asking me for the same information that I've supplied on my CV. So boring and I get hand cramp from trying to write it all out quickly when I've done it sooo many times before. There must be an easier way of registering.

However I will be glad of the excuse to get out of the flat and out of my local area and mix with people. I've done nothing and seen no one these past couple of days and it's slowly doing my head in. Later I'll be attending a "Speed Flatmating" event with a girl we went to the theatre with on Saturday and has recently moved to London. Not sure if there'll be too many whole (2 bed) flats on offer there tonight but it can't hurt to look. I definitley need to find a place that's located near a tube line. I'm tired of trekking in and out to my flat and sometimes it's easier just to stay in and be a loner than to make the effort to get out.

No Change

Nothing's changed in this past week. I'm still jobless, still looking, nothing to report and I'm so bored. I can't find anything else to blog about at the moment. There's no auditions either. I did go to the theatre on Saturday night as I got cheap tickets for Spring Awakening and rather enjoyed that. That was a fun night out as we bumped into other internet friends in the theatre bar (the cheap ticket offer was posted on the forum we all use) and after the show we trekked to Soho so say Happy Birthday to another internet forum acquaintance. We ended up in a bar which had almost naked men dancing in the windows and on the bar so that was quite fun to look at. Unfortunately the bar was about hte size of a matchbox and quite expensive so we gave up struggling to breathe or find a place to stand so left as soon as we spoke to the birthday boy.

That's probably been the highlight/most excitement I've had in these past few weeks. Apart from all the MJ palavar and tv & radio interviews. Looking forward to getting work, finding a new place to live and getting back to my manic, busy life. It can't come soon enough.

Happy St. Patrick's Day

I can't let this day pass without sounding somewhat patriotic. So here it is: Hooray! Happy St. Patrick's Day everyone.

In other news, I still have no new job and I'm so bored. I'm bored of pressing F5 on my email browser and hoping for ray of light to appear in my inbox offering something interesting and lifechanging. Come on, joke's over. Employ me now.

Nada!

I still have no job and I have no MJ tickets. Well, I kinda have one after a friend bought some priced-up ones on ebay for us without speaking to me first. So I'm going to see one concert (faraway, from the upper tiers "up in the Gods" seats) so that something. Even if I do have to pay £100 more than the asking price. I really don't have the energy to rant properly about the whole ticket buying process, I just wonder how the hell so many MJ fans have missed out on tickets while so many touts are selling them at obscene prices on eBay. This is a hot topic as I was even interviewed on radio again about this. So at the moment I have one over-priced upper tier ticket but shall be wathcing the ticket sites very closely in the run up to the concerts in case some more are release. In the meantime I will get a job or tow somehow and work lots and save lots so I'm ready to pay up when good seats become available.

And that sums up the week I've had. Not much else to say.

Radio Mel-Mel

I'm so tired right now and need my bed soon. It's been an active and crazy couple of days and I need a good sleep to feel better. Mj has now left town so things might calm down until the concert tickets go on sale on Wednesday/Friday. I need to hope & pray that me and/or my friends get a pre-sale ticket code soon.

I stayed in Friday daytime making up for the tiring and hugry day before then went out in the evening to go to the cinema with Ellie. Afterwards we decided to walk to Covent Garden as we heard tha Michael was watching "Oliver" that night. We didn't stay too long as we weren't prepared to wait 2.5 hours for the show to finish and for Michael to reappear. I did however use this time to schedule another interview, this time for LBC radio for the following day.

On Saturday we paid another trip to the cinema (to see The Young Victoria - very nice!) before dashing home to await a phonecall from the radio station to put me on air. I knew this might be a tougher interview than the BBC one as the presenter had made it clear to me that he didn't rate post-8o's MJ that much, so I boned up on facts and figures to support my points beforehand. It's wasn't too bad actually. Yes the presenter made some negative comments but he wasn't nasty about it and gave me time to get my points across and agreed with some things I said. Apparently the people in the studio seemed impressed with what I said and one woman on their team saying that I should become MJ's spokesperson. Ummm.. yes please!

I spent Saturday evening doing something non-Mj related: playing this game at a friend's house. Which was a lot of fun. We carried on into the wee hours and I ended up snoozing on a friend's sofa until I had to leave in the morning to go home, change and go straight again to have lunch with a friend. Phew!

I'm feeling a bit better about myself and my abilities after the last few day. My friends have been very supportive of my interviews and given me praise where due. I have no pretty way of wrapping up this blog entry as I really need to log off and sleep so I'l just say goodnight now.

I need all the luck in the world for getting a ticket this week!

The Fan Continued: Michael Jackson Live In Concert

I am so tired and need to sleep soon but I must talk about my day while it is all fresh in my memory and relevant.

After the quickest bath in history and sacrafising six of my precious pounds on a taxi (buses don't move fast enough for me) I arrived at the O2 and began the long wait with friends for Michael Jackson's press conference. We waited, and waited, talked shite for hours and got interviewed briefly by a local radio station. A moment I am quite proud of. After spend an hour or two moaning baout being bored of waiting and how I hate MJ and his fans, when the reporter asked me how excited I was at today's events I gave an oscar-worthy performance and responded that I was "...extremely excited. We just can't wait to see Michael Jackson and here his news!". I even got praised on my "perfomance" by another fan in the crowd.

We waited some more, got moved to another section of the foyer which was closer to the stage that MJ would eventually appear on, and waited some more. Finally, over an hour late, TV's Dermot O'Leary came on stage to anounce Michael's arrival completed with a jazzy compilation video:



Then Michael Jackson came onstage to defending noise and hysteria and when the audience eventually calmed down he delivered a short speech on his summer concerts (see below) and how they would be his last and he'll see us in July. And then he was off!



Thinking that was all the fun (if you can call standing for 6 hours with a pulled hamstring and backache and having not eaten at all today fun) I met up with my friends and was making plans for the evening when I was called by the BBC and invited to come to their studio to speak on the topic of MJ's concert. After encouragement from friends, me and another friend were in a laid-on car and on our way to the TV studio. The whole thing happened quite quickly. We were ushered into the green room then immediately into the TV studio and as soon as some VT was playing we were quickly shown our seats beside the newsreaders and mic-ed up. The interview wasn't as scary as I thought it would be and we didn't get too hard a time from the news readers.

Then it was over and we were shown out and put in a car to take us home. And that was the end of today's adventures. A couple of people recorded our interview so hopefully I should be able to upload it soon. Watch this space - the start of my TV career? :-p

The Fan Is Back

Putting the job and auditions progress to one side the other hot topic has to be... the big Michael Jackson press conference at the O2 tomorrow and what it will bring. Most likely to announce his run of concerts at that venue over the summer. Of course I will be there, I'm out of work so I should take advantage. The timing sucks (no job, no money for tickets) but in a way it doesn't.

(30 mins later)

Just off the phone to Citz where we having been getting stupidly giddy about tomorrow's events. Can't believe we're all getting in my loony fan mode again. I'm sure we swore we'd never be like this again.

Until tomorrow... Eeeeeeee!!!