BEDA Day Twenty Seven: Tired

Tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired..... and I'm going to sleep.

BEDA Day 24, 25 & 26 - The Weekend

Yes so I've probably failed the BEDA challenge now but I don't care and I'm going to continue blogging until the end of the month anyway.

I came from on Friday night after some goodbye drinks with the people from my former department. Then plan was to make watch some TV, blog and make dinner. I got as far as watching TV. At some point during the Jonathan Ross show I nodded off and didn't wake until 3am. I decided it was probably best for me to continue sleeping and rest properly than blog.. and boil water for pasta while half-asleep.

The next way was jame packed with activites and not helped by my nearest tube line being down therefore making me late. It didn't matter too much though as everyone else was running late too. A small group of us went on a nature walk and took in the sights of North London's parks before dining in a Colombian resturant then (some of them) calling it a day. Me and New Friend (NF) then headed to the cinema to watch In The Loop. Some of it I didn't understand but it did have some very funny moments. Afterwards me and NF went back to my flat and I was tied up with hostessing duties....

...which continued into Sunday morning and afternoon until we parted and went to have lunch with a girlfriend completely missing out on doing anything marathon-related. We were both knackered so it was fairly uneventful but we had some nice food and a brief shopping trip in the chemist.

Now I'm getting ready to call it a day quite soon. I'm extremely tried as I didn't sleep well last night and I really need to catch up on some Zzzs in preparation for this week. I'm not looking forward to it. Wor will be hetic and tiring and we are still trying to iron out all the details of our new flat and contract before the supposed move date this Friday. Stress! Bring on the Bank Holiday weekend!

BEDA Day Twenty Three: Almost There

There's only one more day to get through and then it is the weekend and then I can sleep and be happy. This week has dragged. Probably because it's the first 5 day week I've worked for a while. I'm bladdy tired and I regret signing up for BEDA now because all I want to do is dry my hair and go to sleep but I've got the write first. When will it end?

BEDA Day Tweny One & Twenty Two: Bad Times

Where is the time going? And my energy. I couldn't blog yesterday because I went around to a friend's place for dinner and come 10pm I was too knackered to travel back home so ended up having a dirty stopout at her place.

I shouldn't be in a good mood right now. And I'm not. Work is tiring and I have some arsey woman being quite unhelpful most of the time. The lettings agency is our new flat went quiet to us and now they're being awkward and requesting more info and we still haven't seen a contract and we're meant to be moving in 8 days! Finally today I was talking to a friend who is directing a play on email about a small part he was unable to cast. He told me that he was hoping me or another friend could do it so I told him I was interested and would like to do it. About an hour later he emailed back apologising but someone (who had auditioned unsucessfully for a main role) came back to him asking if she could play the small role and he gave the part to her. They part he wanted me to do. The part I said very clearly I could so. I am so pissed off.

So things are in a very strange place at the moment. I don't feel settled. My job is very temporary, I'm waiting to be told to move flats and I have no energy to pursue any of the interests that make up me. Can't it be May already?

BEDA Day Twenty: Sorry!

I'm still extremely tired. How long until the weekend? I have no energy but so much to do.

BEDA day Eighteen & Nineteen: Unexpected

This blog covers days Eighteen and Nineteen. The weekend took an expected turn of events so I wasn't at home last night and most of today. I'm extremely tired as I haven't slept much.

I went to a playreading last night at a friends house which turned into a mini party with is wailing on Singstar until late and I ended up staying the night. I befriend one of the guys at the playreading/party and in the morn I went back to his house where there was a Goodbye Breakfast for one of his housemates leaving today to travel. The rest of the day was spent there eating, watching TV and listening to Prince songs. Among other things.

So now I'm finally back and need to have a quick wash and hit the sack. Got my first 5 day work week in almost 2 months. Tiring!

BEDA Day Seventeen: Now It Gets Interesting

Huh-lohhhhh. Eye'm Mel. Eye hov un El Jay. UuuuUUuuuUUuuuuuhhhhhh. We just woched HUGE JACKMAN and frothed at the gusset. Roben Write Peyeannnnnn! CUN REED MY PO-ER-FEACE. UuuuUUUUUuuuuuUUuuuuuuhhhhh!

Translation: I have an L.J. staying over and it's hella fun. We have ate pizza and queefed and creamed over Hugh Jackman on the Jonathan Ross show. We also do a wicked Lady Gaga impression even though she's a humourless, miserable twonk! We compiled a list of celebrity buhbuies that are cute.

Junior Andre
Jayden Spears
Shiloh Pitt
Kingston Rosdale
Suri Cruise (L.J. wants this one)
Violet Affleck
Maddox
Romeo Backham

We danced to a guy's ringtone on the bus home, went to Sainsburys, talked louldy about getting chlamydia screening in the Sainburys pharmacy. But it had closed.

Now I'm schleeeepy.

BEDA Day Sixteen: So Sleepy

Oooooh it's late and I almost forgot to blog. Need to sleep soon. My emotions have been all over the place lately so I enjoy sleeping and taking a break from them all. Hopefully I can the energy to get through Friday. L.J. is staying over tomorrow so that will be hella fun. Weeeeee!

BEDA Day Fiveteen: Is It Getting Better?

I really can't be bothered writing but I signed up for this BEDA challenge so I must see it through.

Work went a little better today than yesterday. Yesterday wasn't going too bad until 5:25pm when I realised that I hadn't faxed on something I was supposed to earlier. I don't have my digifax number yet so I faxed it to a collegue's email with the intention of having her forward the PDF to me so I could forward it on to someone else (that's a non-longwinded way of getting things done!). Oh course I got distracted with all the other stuff I have to do and forgot to completed the progress. So the recruiter who originally requested this got pissed off and shouted at me in front of everyone in the office (and the I.T. helpdesk who I was on the phone too at the same time) making it a very embarassing and uncomfortable scene. How rude!

Still, today was a bit better. It's tiring though and the other recruiter makes me feels like an idiot when I double-check things with her so I have a clue about what's going on. I've resolved to support the HRBP's as best I can so they love me and think I'm fab despite what the arsey recruiters think. That's the plan and I've only got to stick to it for a few weeks.

In the meantime, me & Ellie had 3 flat viewings and two of them were very good. We're now pondering which one to settle on and pursue. Help!

BEDA Day Fourteen

I have no energy to write anything. Everything is meh!

BEDA Day Thirteen: Gearing Up For The Week Ahead

The Easter holiday is now over and I'm getting ready for working tomorrow and dreading it more than usual. The woman I was working with has now left the compnay (and in probably in Chicago right now as I type) so I will be in the driver's seat from tomorrow and will have lots to do and take responibility for. I'm still in the process of learning the job so something's going to go wrong and I will probably be in tears before the week's out knowing me.

I have to remember that the role's only for about 6 weeks so I just need to drag myself through the next month and then it will become a distant memory. Hopefully I'll find another job to go straight into so I'm not stressing about work and money again. I know the ecomony's in the shitter at the moment but would it hurt to give me a nice, chunky job contract 6+ months?

I should be grateful that it's another 4 day week this week. Not long for the next weekend and have plenty planned for that. This weekend was a lot of fun if you ignore the non-existent transport system. Apart from my two trips out to Zone 6 to see Rent, I was well-fed yesterday by friends and watched loads lof films last night before having a good old girlie chat. More of the same please.

Wish me luck for tomorrow.

BEDA Day Twelve: Chocolate Time!

Hoppy Easter! Jesus is alive! I'm blogging now as I'm just about to head out to lunch at one friend's place before staying over at another friend's place. Gosh, I actually sound popular.

I wonder if the shops have put their Easter eggs on sale now.

See you tomorrow!

BEDA Day Eleven: No Day But Today 2

I'm just back from seeing Rent for a second time and feeling slightly emotional. Bear with me while I try to explain it. One of the reasons is realising that I won't be able to see Rent tomorrow as the run has now ended. It's one of my favourite musicals and only now have I been able to see it on stage. So it sounds funny but I enjoyed watching it so much and now I'll have to wait for another company to produce it, god knows when!

One the train home from the theatre I got into quite a serious and honest conversation with my friend. I won't go into too much details but it did involved headspace and future plans leaving me with some deep thorts to think about. Tiring isn't it? Made even more tiring but not having any proper sleep for the past 10 days so I can't process my thoughts properly. I haven't had the chance to catch up this week as I've had to get up and about to get things done. it doesn't always go according to plan.The flat viewing we had today and was rescheduled and then cancelled and we're now trying to reschedule for next week. I bet the agent had a heavy night and just couldn't be bothered leaving the house. Boo!

BEDA Day Ten: No Day But Today

Blogging to you live from Ellie's house! A first for my blog. We just returned from a night out watching or friend in Rent and I enjoyed it muchly. A lot of strong performers leaving me vowing to do better - but in a good way. Not in an angry, pissed off way like the other show I saw the previous week. I'm going to see it again tomorrow with another friend. Fun!

The plan was to return to my flat and stay there as we have a flat viewing in the morning, however London's transport system is more of less non-exisitent making it difficult to get anywhere this weekend. Getting out to the theatre this evening was a long slog. On the way back we missed a train and would have ended up waiting 30 for a 1 hour train journey followed by another hour on the night bus so we gave up and made our way to Ellie's place which is much closer.

So time to round up and be a good little houseguest. Hope the flatviewing goes well tomorrow. Eeee!

BEDA Day Nine: Oh I Really Can't Be Arsed!

It's late. I'm tired. I need to cook my friend's pizza.

Went to work. Had mini chocolate eggs hidden around my desk. Learnt more of the job. Went to friend's birthday drinks. Everyone was dressed all trendy and I was in my work clothes. Not that I mattered. I didn't stay too long. Went home via Sainsburys.

I now have a chocolate caramel cake to devour.

BEDA Day Eight: Too Tired To Care

Oh my God, I am so tired and can't think and am in no fit state to write something. I was going to out-angst L.J. but I don't have the energy. Like her, I need to sort myself out big time. Roll on the Bank Holiday weekend when I can sleep, eat and sleep some more.

I'm not going to worry too much about the job when I take it over properly next week. I have been told that if in doubt about anything, talk to the recruiters. I get the feeling I will be firing lots of questions their way in the next few weeks. Oh well, it it makes life a little bit easier then hooray.

Right, I'm off to have a cup of tea, a bath and to tidy the flat. I want to sleeeeeeeep.

Beda Day Seven: Happy Now?

Some twat is not happy that I'm posting blogs for the days before events have unfolded so here's another one for Day 7 just to stop his PMT taking shape and bursting forth from his secret vagina.

Work sucks. I still have no idea how to log these CVs and I don't understand the fancy schmancy financial job title jargon enough to make an educated guess where I should log CVs and what levels/areas I should place them in. It's scary to think that in a couple of weeks I'll have too train the next new person on this. I must schedule some last-minute cramming in the next day or two before my colleague disappears forever. Help!

I spent my evening at the play read-through and I'm unsure what to do and audition for. The director (and good friend) has a couple of people in mind to audition for the role I'm interested in and made not mention of WANTING me to audition, when he's blantently demand that others audition in front of me. I'm thinking of not pursuing an acting role in this production and take up a dancer role on the show. The next dilemma is deciding if a dancing role is worth giving up the opening night of Michael Jackson's concert run. I don't have a ticket for that night but you never know. I might get one, somewhere, somehow.

I'm so confused about everything right now. Is there anything I'm good at?

I'm so confused

BEDA Day Seven: It's Called Acting Dahling!

And here is Tuesday's BEDA entry. My friend is going to be directing a play that will be performed in July and tonight is the pre-audition read-through. It's Shakespeare! How different. There is a chance that we will all go out for a drink afterwards and I'll get home and have to blog post-midnight again so this takes care of that possibility.

Shakespeare. Yikes! I don't have a clue if I can do it or not. This will be interesting.

BEDA Day Six: Overwhelming Feelings of Meh-ness

I am a tired Mel. I screwed up my sleeping pattern yesterday so come night night I was too alert to nod off at a reasonable hour. Then I decided to wake myself up at 5am so I was only able to snooze until I had to get up for work. Speaking of work I am also worried that I have a lot to learn about this job and I am not going to be be able to pick it all up by Thursday when the woman I'm taking over from leaves. *gulp* I thought doing the expenses was bad, then I had to do invoicing. I thought that was bad then today I had to log CVs. One three different spreadsheets. And I need to have and infinte knowledge of banking positions and departments to know the correct places to log the CVs. Me no have a cloo!

Still, it's better than having no job and it's only temporary. Hopefully I all I get asked to do for the next six weeks is to write reference letters to allow employees to open a bank account. That I can do.

I'm still in a funny mood despite chatting to L.J. (online) and Conrado (over the phone) last night. Don't know what's wrong with me. Something needs to change.

(Some of you may notice that it's past 12am. Well I don't care. I haven't been to bed yet so it's still the same day for me. And look at the blog post time below. Anyway, I was off washing myself. Would you rather I stink?)

BEDA Day Five: Meh!

I have eff all to blog about today.

BEDA Day Four: Recovery

I rolled in at 4am last night. Went to bed at 5am, slept until 1:30pm woke up, surfed the net then fell back asleep. It's 9pm, I've just been to the shops to get food and coca-cola and now I'm ready to function properly.

I had a lot of fun at the birthday party last night although I probably should have gone home earlier. There was flirting, scandalous photos and most shocking of all, a SENSIBLE conversation with the birthday girl's brother. We also amused ourselves by stick glittery stars over our faces. Look how pretty they made me:

So I've done nothing today and I feel a bit crap & lazy about it. I went to the supermarket and bought pizza, Haribo and fizzy drinks and on the way back decided that I really MUST eat better and lose weight soon... but not tonight. I met up with my friend Jess earlier this week and we promised to take part in some runs, I'd like to say it has motivated me to exercise again but it hasn't. I will start running again... but not tonight.

Maybe I'll start tomorrow.

BEDA Day Three: Party!

It's very late (early morning) but thought it best to blog now as I might not get the chance to blog later in the day. I shall be spending most of my life in New Job and then afterwards I have a friend's birthday celebrations in the evening and we shall probably party well into the night. Or until I have to leave to catch the last tube home.

I still feel a bit down. I have to stop dwelling on certain things and look ahead now. I'm also not happy that I have to wake up early. I start my job at 8:30am which is just plain wrong. I'm probably going to get 5 hours sleep maximum tonight. Maybe I can programme my brain to think that hours is a reasonable amount of sleeping time.

Guten nacht!

BEDA Day Two: Work & Progress

I have a job... back at the previous place I worked, in another department (HR). It's for about six weeks but it's better than nothing. This will give me by me more time to look for a longer term job or *gasp* one I might even like! It also means I can go ahead a move if I find a place I like. So hurrah, something are in the process of working out.

I went to my theatre's company's show last night and have had mixed feelings on whether or not I had a good time. It was great to see some former cast members and catch up with people, I even had a guy encouraging me to try for professional acting jobs too. The downside of the night was being reminded the the part(s) I missed out on and how some people (friends included) doubt my abilities, even though they should know better.

There's nothing I can do now. In two days the show will have completed it's run and be consigned to theatre history. All I can do is take more classes, get better and get better parts. Now I am working again I can hopefully start taking singing lessons again so I'm excited about that. Hurrah. Mel For The X-Factor 2009 Win!

BEDA Day One: The Beginning

Conceived by Maureen Johnson and brought to my attention by Citz I will attempt to participate in "Blog Every Day April". It's higly unlikey I'll manage to blog every day this month but I can always try.

So, it's very early in the morning (12:30am) and not much to report about the day and we're only half an hour into it. I assume that I'll spend the day doing nothing execpt jobhunt on the internet and watching rubbish daytime TV. My evening looks to be a bit better. I'll be going to see a musical put on by my theatre company. This is the musical that I was offered a rubbish, made-up part in but I'm not petty and I shall support their production even though they have overlooked my loyalty and performing abilities. Plus, it is also the birthday of a friend who will be working on the bar at tonight's performance so a group of us will be there to sing Happy Birthday to her no doubt.

Hurrah! Something to do.